Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in arcane_secret's LiveJournal:

Friday, October 14th, 2005
11:52 am	Lost Lovers of Time I wonder when things will be different for us, love.  I wonder when you'll see what I do... When you'll find your peace... yourself. Work is slow for this second...I can afford a few sentences in my busy day.  I miss you... but I'll see you tonight.  I'd like to straighten things up a bit before you come over again tho.  Okay?  So first it's  a journal dedicated to me, then to sex, now to everybody.  You sure love your attention, don't you?  lol.  I feel weird... kinda like I want you to feel jealous about me... but whatever.  It's a fun feeling knowing someone wants to keep you to themself because they desire 'n love you so much.  Craziness.  I wonder...   ( Have a duck hump... )
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Tuesday, October 4th, 2005
2:30 am	Morning all... It's 2:30 AM and I'm going to work... (again). Knew this was gonna happen tonight. Just knew. Sorry I missed your call, love.
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Friday, September 30th, 2005
7:58 am	Morning sweetie, love ya.
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Monday, September 19th, 2005
7:48 am	I had a dream last night In my dream I was at Alicia's house, on her porch with her when the phone rang and I picked up it. It was her mom so I thought it was okay to answer. Soon I heard a man's name, how much he'll be paying, where it's arranged, and at what time. I asked Alicia... and her look of fear, exposure, and shame revealed all. Her eyes revealed all. She knew I knew SOMETHING. I told her to tell me what was going on. Apparently her mom needed some extra money to pay bills... and she would call in information to Ali about someone whom she was supposed to sleep with for money. And they had been doing it for a while. Then, in my dream I got angry...hurt, exasperated, enraged.... I punched the sliding glass door (though it seemed like I couldn't hit it with all of my strength)... started throwing furniture at walls, screaming, crying out... ....I hate when I open my mind back up. When I'm forced to open it to do my duty.
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Wednesday, August 31st, 2005
9:01 am	The Ultimate Girlfriend Survey Created by Arcane_secret and taken 0 times on lj History Where did you two first meet? T.C's house When exactly did you two first meet? At low points in our lives What was your first impression of her? Intriguing, lot's of problems. When did you start liking her? Never really sure... When did you two start going out? Feb 7 How was with your first kiss with her like? Heh... pressured, but good. Is she your first Girlfriend? If not, then which? 3rd. Are you his first girlfriend? If not, then which? 3rd. About her How much older/younger is she compared to you? 2 years, 11 months younger Hair colour? brown Eye colour? Blue (never dated a blue-eyed b4) Build? Slim, model-like Astrological sign? Pisces Skin colour? pale-ish Race/ethnicity? White Nationality? Irish Religion? nadda Glasses? no Piercings? Yes..on her ears only NOW Tattoos? Not yet Chest hair? oh gosh... no Scars? Where? yes... Know where's his birthmark if she has one? hum.... Smart/not? smarty Sarcastic/not? very Humourous/not? She doesn't make many jokes but yes'm Possessive/not? yay... I mean yes... Patient/not? heh... kinda Affectionate/not? definately Protective/not? definately Clingy/not? sometimes, but I like it when I can be clingy too Expressive/not? shy Talkative/quiet? quiet mostly Outgoing/shy? shyshyshy Party animal/Stay at home kind? party animal (before me) Sporty/not? sporty! *beams* Artistic/not? kinda Practical or more of the dreamy type? dreamy His skills Can he cook or bake? cinna-men rolls Can she repair/fix things? don't know... Can she dance? *blushes* yes Can she sing? She never sings in front of me! T.T Can she draw? She can draw words nicely... Can she play any instrument? Don't think so Can she write well? Sometimes Can she make you laugh? oh yes Can she make others laugh? lol... What is his talent if she has found it? se...err... I mean... Is she good at science and math? Not really Things you like about her What do you like about the things she say? Prompts me to think What do you like about the things she does? So affectionate What do you like about the things she does FOR YOU? She wants me to be happy What part of his face do you like the most? All of it, especially her scars and eyes What part of his body do you like the most? ALL of it...especially the things she doesn't What part of his personality do you like the most? The romantic/thoughtful side What do you most admire about her? Her dedication What part of her attracts you the most? Wildness Do you know what attracts her to you? Loyalty, Persistance, Compassion Random quirks Is she a pet lover? Yep Animal lover? Yep Is she environmental-friendly? Sometimes... lol ...Sometimes not What are his views on political issues? None Is she racist? No Is she a vegetarian? Oh gods no Does she drink? lil Smoke? nope Curse? yes Sleep around? ...An issue to be debated... but to me, no Abuse drugs? Used to Is she hairy? No... Does she donate to beggars? I...don't know Is she neat/messy? Both His love life Is she a romantic? Self-professed or closet? Romantic Is she sentimental? Yes How did she woo you? Persistence Does she give you flowers? ...lol no Does she lavish you with gifts? ...no...just love Does she pay for your meals/tickets/etc? Sometimes... Is she okay with confessing his love for you in public? I wish a lil more Does she express his love for you in words or actions? both Things you don't like about her (though you accept his faults) Any habits of his that you dislike? Things she says and then doesn't do Any part of his appearance that you dislike? ... Any part of his character that you dislike? ... Your feelings for her So..how long have you two been together? Not nearly long enough Do you truly love her? I do Does she truly love you? Oh yes Can you envision marrying her? *blush, smile* Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to Bzoink
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Monday, July 25th, 2005
8:25 pm	Words for the Love-Mad Masses Such a big cynical place, ne? We have the world... and almost 54% of television is marketed towards sex alone... this brings up an interesting thought... If 35 years ago sex was still between marraige and lovers... what will the world be like in 35 more... Today people sleep around, sex has lost its purpose as a unifying experience, a bond between mate and mate... Today everyopne is just another quick, senseless fuck... an orgasm host for your sexual organs. Congrats world, you spineless jerkoffs... you've proven yet again just how fucking rediculous you are... Call me old-fashioned, call me a pansy because I don't want to stick my organ into every piece of ass that comes along... forgive me for my non-conformity to your meaningless, souless ways... Today we have things like "Who's hot and who's not..." "30 ways to a mind-blowing orgasm" "How to keep your men out of other women's beds.." and other bullshit of the like... And as a youthful mind... I'm supposed to just be like the fucking rest of you? Kiss my ass, world... You can have your honorless existance, atleast I hold value in me still and haven't abandoned millenias worth of character... You mindless, honorless fuck ups. Go be emo or something and kill yourself. The point is... everything is porn... 93% of the internet is porn or sex-related. Everything is porn, everything is sex, everything is lust... Where is the honor, the heartfelt, the fierceless, the brave, the compassionate? Where have the valiant and honest gone? Where have the old ways gone? "I never believed in the devil until I took my first look at the world... and I never wanted God more than when I took my second...for I saw Hell upon earth... and when the earth split open, the fires of hell and the wolrd collided... and everything I loved was burned away..."
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Saturday, July 23rd, 2005
8:58 pm	The scent of the air swarmed his senses and he was beautifully lost in the sensation... the way her hips were outlined in his long shirt, just barely covering her ass... caused him to stir in earthy ways. Her lean, smooth legs carried her away from him to her dresser... she was writing something, scribbling, really in a fast and hurried way... He stood, curious... and as he did so, she turned... her hand extending towards him with a note held out.... ...he took it and read... "I need to be punished... I've been a bad girl..." Their eyes met and in that escalated moment you could hear, if you were close enough, both of their hearts beating with anticipation... their breaths quickening, see their faces flushing... But he acted... and took the role of "Master" ...and she of "Slave" And into the night, the lovers played their games... and loved every minute of it...
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Friday, July 8th, 2005
10:35 pm	The star - crossed loves... “These tears, they burn from my eyes and run aflame down my cheeks. My heart, liquid flame, escaping in searing agony, the same as which you cause within me.” I look up, into your eyes, those sparkling, heavenly things and am shocked at our differences, for my eyes hold all of the pains that Hell could offer in a single word, “love.”
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Sunday, February 6th, 2005
5:43 pm	The Protection of this Journal is Entrusted to You. Those who have this journal listed among their "friends of" lists are the only ones meant to see this. Therefore I ask that those of you who do have it to keep the name of this account and what is contained within these digital pages between yourselves. Certain people I cannot trust. They have jeapardized me as it is and in order to protect myself for this time being I ask for your secrecy. Here in these pages are laid bare what I think and who I am. Here amongst these codes are my feelings. I ask that you respect them. Thank you, my family. - arcane_secret
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